Good News From Oz.

OK, so here is the short version: my uterus was wide open during the sonohysterogram (NO scar tissue). We are done with surgeries. I am on hormones to make sure things heal nicely for the next 6 weeks. After that, we get to try again for baby!!

WHOOOO-HOOO! Right?

Here is the long emotional version: I feel like I should be more excited? I have been waiting for this news for over a year, and been dealing with the outcome of loosing The Boys for almost 2 years. I think I was expecting BAD news, and I am still waiting for it (the BAD) to surface! Last night I tossed and turned all night dreaming about the GOOD in the world trying to overcome the BAD, but the BAD was catching up to the GOOD. Also, the GOOD was very difficult to find and the BAD flowed like water!

This is how I have lived much of the past year... waiting for the next shoe (aka pile of shit) to drop! I'm afraid to say, "Surely things have been/are bad enough! Surely things will get better soon!" Because every time I've said that over the past year, things found a way to get worse!

Could it really be true that things will get better now? For REALZ? How do I make myself believe that what is happening is GOOD and that things will progress as expected? How do I enjoy this (SHORT) time of healing?

Six weeks to prepare for future pregnancy (exercise, vitamins, fish oil, and LOTS and LOTS of beer)... Six weeks to continue the CRAZY hormones... Six weeks to wait... If I click my heels together can it all be over soon?